Yes, of course I’m imperfect, Nice to meet you Hater.

I’m not perfect. Wow! I know, shocker right?! I thought I should play Captain Obvious and point that out because since I have started blogging and sharing my personal thoughts and experiences I have found that some people seem to think that I am supposed to be some sort of robot, moral compass just because I have made parts of myself and my life public and open to the world. The truth is, in most ways, I’m probably no different than you, I am just a mom with an opinion and computer skills. I know who I am and who I’m not and I don’t mind that people see the sour along with the sweet. That’s what’s real. You aren’t going to connect with someone that pretends to be something they’re not. Besides, I suck at pretending anyways! I am me and after almost 30 years, I’m good with that. I am very self aware of who I am and my strengths and weaknesses..so before you write me to tell me who I am, do YOU really know?

I am flawed.

I am strong willed but I definitely have my weak moments..more than I would like to admit.

I am ever-changing and multifaceted.

I love with everything in me, it’s my best and worst trait.

I make a lot of mistakes, along the way I’ve learned to use them as a way to learn and grow into something better.

I overreact.

I give people too many chances.

I can be impatient.

I can be controlling.

I can be too obsessive with things that shouldn’t matter.

I have the ability to recognize negative traits within myself, I try my best to work through them.

I love live music, animals, computers, design, fashion, art, and anything creative .

I see beauty everywhere.

I’m eclectic.

My biggest fear is that I won’t have enough time in my life to do all the things I want to do.

I usually have too much on my plate.

I have been taken advantage of more than once.

I am very “in my head”.

I am shy around people I don’t know but never shut up when I’m comfortable.

I occasionally drink alcohol.

I have 11 tattoos..and the mouth of a sailor.

I am sarcastic.

I always say I’m sorry if I’m wrong, sometimes it takes me longer than it should though.

I don’t hold grudges…for long.

It takes a lot to make me mad but I tend to bottle all the little things up then the cork pops at the wrong time.

I wish on shooting stars.

I am a GREAT mom to my son. Yes I am, call me conceded or whatever ya will for writing that but it is truly my greatest and most important accomplishment. Just look at the things my kid has achieved and tell me I didn’t do something right. He has truly made me a better person and has changed my entire outlook on the world and my life.

So that’s me.

Putting yourself out there in the way that bloggers do can put you in a very vulnerable position. On the internet people have brass balls and say things they would never say to your face because they don’t have to accept any responsibility for it online.  That’s all okay and I have accepted that it comes with the territory, I just have to dissect it all a bit as I do with pretty much everything that floats through my head cause it’s what I do.  So kisses to all the ones who hate, thanks for giving me something to write about ;)

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8 thoughts on “Yes, of course I’m imperfect, Nice to meet you Hater.

  1. artsychicksw says:

    How petty some people are to write to you and other bloggers with personal negative comments! You are smart to know and accept that it can be part of being a blogger, though. I like your post…turning something negative into something positive, for sure! And you are NOT conceited about being a great mom…or if you are then I am, too!
    I want to thank you for following my blog…I’ve just visited yours and plan to read a lot of back posts. We have in common that we have sons with Autism! My son is 23, has MR and ADHD, too, is funny, loving and at times very thoughtful of others. He has touched many people’s lives just by being himself and I’m so proud of him, and my other two kids, ages I15 and 19. I look forward to getting to know you better over time. Peace to your heart

  2. julie says:

    hey ash just catchn up here, no internet for awhile so was unable, but now im immersed!! sooo, reading just now..u know im always amazed by u and all u do, but gotta say this hit my heart hard, for some reason, my bipolor mayb? im crying as i read!!!! geesh julie, suck it up right? tears of happiness too!!

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