I literally almost had a heart attack today…like a serious, FULL-ON, major mom meltdown in my front yard.
My son had a field trip and I got so worried and frazzled about him all day that somehow I forgot that he would be home late and he wouldn’t be riding the bus home like normal. When the bus came I was standing outside waiting as usual and I didn’t see him. He didn’t get off the bus! He wasn’t there! ….I’ll just say extreme panic attack would’ve be an understatement. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t see.. it felt like I had been run over by a Mac truck. In a matter of seconds a thousand things flashed through my mind, all the most horrible scenarios I have or could have ever imagined.
**Oh my god! Oh my god no! Is my baby okay?!!! Did he run? Please, please baby tell me you didn’t run!! He was out of town, everything is unfamiliar to him! Is he okay? Is he by himself? Is he hurt?! Is he scared?! Please please pleeeease god let him be okay!!!!**
At that point I was screaming at the busdriver, ” WHERE IS BUG??!!!” She said to call the school so I threw my arms up feeling helpless, ran back to my house, tears streaming down my face, and dialed up the school to THANKFULLY find out that Bug was perfectly safe and he wasn’t even back from the field trip yet.
I almost peed myself and passed out simultaneously. I have NEVER been so scared in my entire life.
As of this morning I had never had not even one gray hair on my head. I’d be willing to bet there’s fifty now.
I am so grateful for my beautiful, amazing child. Words cannot even describe. When I finally saw him I hugged him like I’d never let him go.
My heart has been heavy over the story of Avonte Oquendo, This sweet boy from Queens NY is STILL missing! He was last seen on Oct. 4 walking out of a school in Queens. The reward for Avonte’s safe return is up to nearly $90,000. Police ask anyone with information to call the police TIPS hot line.
– I hate to have to add this part. I do so with a very heavy heart :( I do not wish to blog about what happened to Avonte but I will provide a link to those of you who have followed his story. Rip sweet boy.
Here are some VERY important wandering/elopement links. Feel free to share this page!!